it may have reached meme status, but–I’M DONE ADULTING!!! i’m truly at a loss as to how i’m supposed to get decent sleep, eat well/healthy, practice self-care, work, do laundry, pay bills, pay back your student loan, save money for the future, have something that resembles a social life…and NOT end up in a frothy attack of sheer anxiety.
today, 2 bills and my student loan payment were/are due. have i paid them yet? nope. what have i done with my day? stuff that ACTUALLY brings me joy. something i rarely do.
look, i know the reality is that *no one* has their shit together, but why does it feel so much like i’m failing??? like everyone else has at least ONE thing figured out in their life. that everyone else has mastered at least ONE aspect of adulting.
i want to get in shape- mentally & physically.
i want to eat nourishing, healthy foods.
i want a direction in which to take my life: career or otherwise.
i want to not be so damn sleepy all the time.
i want to have friends i do things with, and not like i’m some lonely hermit because i also want to stay at home.
i want to feel like i belong somewhere.
i want to not have raging panic attacks.
mostly, i want to go back and be a kid again, so the only worries i have are trivial.