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keeping myself accountable
way, way, waaaaaaaaay back now, i made a list of things and slowly but surely i have been able to tick some off my list. if i’m being completely honest, did i think i would still be working on this list OVER 6 MONTHS LATER? no. no i did not. but i am grateful that i have not given up, not turned my back on these mini-projects that are making me whole again.
so a quick update on which i’ve “newly” accomplished: #4 { returning to yoga }, #5 { exploring various faith communities }, #9 { creating something as a gift to give away }, #17 { learning a new skill from/with someone }, #18 { having a “terribly adult” conversation }, #21 { re-purposing something}, #22 { doing something wildly outside my norm }, and #28 { spending the day being crafty }.
an imbolc prayer
for all the times you have been silenced:
may you take pride in voicing your opinions without fear
for all the times you have felt alone, left out, unworthy, unwanted:
may those deep wounds be healed; may you find yourself surrounded by love & support
for the years you felt trapped by gender roles:
may you be freed daily from oppression
for the times you have been quiet, meek, timid, and worried about other’s opinions:
may you find a willingness to share yourself with others; to know your true value & worth
for the times you feel self-doubt:
may you see what i see in you and recognize your inner strength. may you know that you reside in the Divine, and She resides in you.
blessed be.
little victories
i just got back from a 2-mile walk. i realize that may not sound terribly impressive, but to me, it’s a fairly big deal. in my life, i want to be more active. i want to be fit and healthy. i want to live a long life with my awesome spousal unit. depression gets in the way. A LOT!
in therapy yesterday, we danced around the ideas of: 1. giving myself permission { whether it’s permission to practice self-care OR permission to be as i am, in that moment, without judgement } and 2. to celebrate/revel in/ be proud of little victories { REALLY DIFFICULT CONCEPTS FOR ME}
the universe must really want me to take those lessons to heart, because not only did i share { in solidarity } this with a co-worker, but one of my “regular sites” featured this post on how “tracking positivity” can help with depression. so here i am, celebrating my little victory with the universe.
an amazing mentor { and friend AND founder of The Women’s Intelligence Project } shared an enlightening piece Centering Wellness: Reimagining Justice, Care and Change Making Professions. the author, jardana peacock, is speaking specifically about fields of work when she stares:
“we must see our work as trauma work.
We often experience that trauma as overwhelm, anxiety and stress. Compound that with personal trauma(s) and we are headed toward breakdown and burnout.
Without an emphasis on wellness, folks will continue to suffer exponentially from burnout, anxiety, and spiritual malaise….
The truth is trauma never goes away. Trauma will always exist in our world and in our bodies. Self-care/Community-care, wellness and spiritual practices will, however, provide a container of healing.”
this is what i am attempting to do: practice self-care. i want to heal.